I recently read Paulo Coelho saying in an interview that at 34, he finally decided to become focussed in life.

Way to go Ab. You’re just 23!

But well, yeah, I think the time has come for me also to settle down. Even without doing any of the crazy things that most kids moms are afraid their kids would get trapped in, I still managed to attract the angst of mom and virtually all my relatives and the few friends who cared, with the lack of direction in my life.

The problem is, there aint much to settle. Like Iv told you, Iv been pretty good by most of your standards. But I sure need a steady job. For the record, in less than three years since I started working, Iv already quit three jobs. And that’s gotta change. Atleast I should be doing something that makes me feel happy for more than 8 months on average. Iv finally decided I am indeed going to become a journalist. Of course, that’s not to say that I wont get tired of news, but I feel Ill do well, and how better to test it than to actually see for myself.

And I need to settle down in my relationships. Well, all my friendships this far have gone the same way – out of my life. And all I have to show for the efforts is, I guess, what Karen Carpenters meant when she sang 'all Iv learnt from love is how to live without it'. But it looks like I have come a long way, though. Today I don’t worry a whole two days at my insolence when a friend explains the lack of communication with ‘I thought it was your turn to mail’. I mean, how could someone have the nerve to tell me that. Or maybe it is indeed my fault all through. So its quits. Lets see if there are other pleasures in life!