And I dont wanna be alone

You get used to being alone. But break that once, and youve gotta get used all over again. Says Bach in his book Illusions. (Now thats a book you could read, if you already havent, though I cant assure you you can retain all of your sanity)
That why do I, how is it that I always end up alone feeling. No matter how many friends or relatives we have, or how close they are to us, there is an aloneness in all of us. Well, were not neccessarily alone. But we feel alone. That no one else thinks the way I do. No one sees things or has the same attitude towards things as I.
It could be that everybody sees things the way I do. But I dont feel it. So again Im alone.
Or it could be the child in us. Never satisfied with what we have. And, I believe, we dont have a damned right to be.
Again, it could be because of the uniqueness in each of ourselves. We are all unique. Just like everybody else. What we expect from relationships. And this is what sets us in the quest for more. The quest for someone just like us. The perfect friend. The perfect friend does not have to be perfect, only perfect for you.
Whether this pursuit will turn out to be futile, ask me after, maybe, well i dont know how you can ask me after I die, but, if you wanna know, try.
But whatever, being alone is disgusting. One of the few (and there seems to be many instances of those few) when you wish you were back at home.
And I dont wanna be alone


The song 'Alone' by the Beegees was a favorite of mine. This post has glimpses of its meaning as explained by Barry Gibb.