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Ten random things about myself

I want to talk as if there wont be any tomorrow, but at the same time I often wish people would just leave me alone. I can talk about anything in the world. Like the solution for rising fuel costs to marriage and love advice. I might soon start giving sex advice . Who said you need experience to tell others what to do.

I know Im not ‘normal’, but I don’t think I really mind, and anyway, Iv learnt to live with it!

I seem to like the things noone else does, have a general distaste for the ‘in-things’ and a complete lack of understanding of fashion.

Im very much what you’d call a poseur. A wannabe. But of course, I manage to make sure noone else notices.

I don’t take myself seriously anymore. I used to, but realised it wasn’t worth much. So today I really don’t give a damn if someone spreads stories behind my back, ‘thinks’ I am a fool, or doesn’t want to talk to me. I call it bliss not to be bothered.

I ‘believe’ in God. No actually, I ‘know’ God. And I think that makes a helluva lot of difference!

Talking of God, I feel Iv been abundantly blessed in life. Everything that happened now looks like a really wise Man way ahead of time carefully planned it! Than ya, buddy up there!

I really don’t believe in sorry’s. I don’t say sorry to friends. If you make me say sorry, you’re not a friend anymore. But I don’t insist people say sorry to me. All of us make mistakes, don’t we?

I have this amazing knack of catching the wrong friends. For some reason, the friends Iv been most obsessed with are the ones who’v never really respected the person I am.

I too am a hopeless romantic. Staunchly refusing to believe that love can happen only in movies and that love can be just a feeling. I will fall in love. One day. I surely will (Oh God, this already sounds like a closing statement)

Nine things I wish I wasn’t/didn’t

Have to attend concerts (which is what I love the most) alone!

Keep losing all the friends Iv really cared for. Be forever on this pursuit of eternal friendship!

Believe (and keep on believing) that I could do things noone else could. Believe that I was created to do something only I could. (well, it started long before I read Harry Potter, so you cant attribute it to that) ….(Oh freak I cant believe I just saw a Nike ad saying ‘Take it to the next level – Just do it! lol….LOL)

Have to motivate myself so much. I must be the most inspirational person. Almost every night, for the last two years, Iv resolved to be more disciplined and hard working. I try in the morning also. It just doesn’t happen.

Surrounded by so many people who can ‘work’ for 8 hours everyday, who are so disciplined, and who seem to want to excel at work.

Be so ambitious. No, I wish I was more ambitious the way everyone else is. All I seem to have are a lot of crazy ambitions with just one common denominator – ‘Its something noone else will/can do’.

So emotional. So tender hearted. So selfless when it comes to keeping a relationship alive. That I wouldn’t feel so bad about having to hurt others, howmuchever I was hurt!.

A social Outcast. And so out of place in ‘high society’.

Find it so difficult to enjoy myself in a group. I just cant seem to. To make loud jokes that are funny in the company of friends!.

Eight things Im wondering right now

In the good old days (uh, ie, the days before I was born) they had the guts to make movies without happy ‘all’s well that’s ends well’ endings. And ya, Malayalam movies were damn good those days (ok, this time its about the 90s – when Actors didn’t look so glamorous, and didn’t have an image to live upto, and when actresses wore the clothes viewers could also wear, and when stars took pain to talk and act like you and me on screen, rather than the other way round.

Lizards look scary. Oh ya, they do. Especially the ones in my part of the world (a.k.a, the walls of a certain bedroom in a wooden house in a kerala village)

They’ve got balls to still call this ‘Gods own country’

A lot of people spend time trying to convince God why they deserve to pass their exams. Im right now telling Him that I don’t deserve to pass this exam on merit, but please, because, I really don’t want to go through this rigour another time. And anyway, how much I know doesn’t really matter to Him, if He wanted to get me through.

How my life would have been if I had actually passed CA Inter the first time I appeared. Sometimes failure can be the best blessing in your life! How different my life would have been if I hadn’t been so fascinated by the internet. If I didn’t have people to mail. If I ddnt have started blogging. If I didn’t meet some of the friends who were around when I went through the hardest of times. If I was still stuck up in kerala. I shudder to even think of it.

Talking about blogs and the net, WTH is wrong with Rama (I mean, generally)

Why is it that Im always an under-performer at work?

Okay Iv written so much. I wonder how many people will actually bother to read this whole thing!!!!!


Seven things that cross my mind a lot

Will I ever make a friend I can have and cherish for life!

If I actually get married, will I have a ‘lived happily ever after’ story to tell, or will it be another of those cases that just don’t work out in spite of your best efforts.

Will I have kids that treat me like I treated my parents when I was fifteen. Oh freak, thats the scariest feeling?

Will I realise that all my ideas are actually just idealistic cravings only when its too late to go back and start all over again!

No, wait a minute, am I saying that all these cross m mind the most? No. What crosses my mind the most these days is whether God will actually pull the plug this time and decide Ill have to pay for my excesses. In other words, that, I’ll have to write this blasted exam another time. Oops, God, please, just one last time!

What’s for dinner?

How can I be so cool and relaxed in life when everybody else is worrying their heads off? Or am I more than ‘just a little abnormal’


Six things Id like to do before I die.

Meet 'the thousandth man’.

Travel without a destination. Just a backpack to last me till I decide Im sick of living out of it, and hopefully a companion!

Report from Wimbledon.

Conduct a 300 voice choir, Probably even a full-fledged orchestra.

Be a prime-time news reader on TV. (okay, I guess that’s asking for too much, but maybe I am a little naïve) and host a live quiz show!

Write a book unlike any other book ever written. (Of course, I don’t know what Im talking about right now, but if I write a book, it will have to be unique)


Five turn on’s

Music! Four part harmonies, western classical, the 70s pop, violin symphonies. Music that tickles the soul. Conversations about music.

Smiles – oops this should’v been right on top!

Beautiful faces, especially of the feminine variety

Ideas! Arguments. Something to think about. Something to discuss. Good lyrics in songs, good dialogues in movies, good thoughts in books, I hang onto every syllable.

The smell of the rain, the chill of the breeze, the darkness of the night. They rouse the romantic in me!


Four Turn off’s

Secretive people, people who hide more feelings than they show. Actually it makes me more nervous than anything else.

Frowns. Faces without smiles!

Too much of makeup and too less of clothes :-D

Loud music!


Three ways to win my heart

Talk to me! That’s a general rule. No matter what else you can do for me, if you cant spare some time for a decent conversation, don’t expect appreciation :(

Talk to me! Oh ya, long conversations, personal conversations. Open, frank ‘straight from the heart talk. Put up with my, sometimes even excessive, bragging. Appreciate stuff like good music and everything else I take a fancy to. Talk over dinner, take a walk together just to chatter!

Talk to me - :) no, no. just kidding – It should be something like ‘show you care’. A ‘just like that’ call, or a wassup message. Something to show you thought of me, and something to show you enjoy the relationship!


Two smileys that describe me

:-)

:>) - that’s the yahoo messenger smiley with the devils face…. Yeah, I love getting under someone else’s skin. The only problem is quite often, I get into people’s skin and get out of their lives – nevertheless I still :>) a lot)

One confession

Contrary to what people think about me, Im not a very brave person. I would be the most unsure person you would have met, if you really look behind this mask of self assurance. I fret about the most trivial of things. Most of the time, the ‘strong’ decisions I take would be the only sane course of action. And when people think Iv got balls to ‘be different’, Im just praying things wont really get out of hand. In fact, so often I would just wish problems away, and I turn yellow when faced with the possibility of getting into a real fight.

PS : The only time I stand real strong is beside friends. And that’s the only time I haven’t really got my due!



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